For the last three years, I have been a part of an on-again off-again relationship with a group of women on facebook. The goal of this group is to either lose or maintain weight based on certain daily habits. Each session there is a very reasonable joining fee and then there are cash prizes throughout the weeks of the challenge to keep members of the group motivated. I have enjoyed this format. It hasn’t kept me from gaining back the weight I lose each time I join a challenge, but that is on me and my love for sugar. I have successfully lost weight each time I participate, so when my jeans get too snug, I sign up again.
The reason I am sharing this is because this week one of the requirements to earn points is to journal each day. I am not one who regularly journals and this is probably not what was in mind when the requirements were written, but this was my entry for day one. I am guessing some of you may relate…
Drank a lot of black coffee.
Thought about how much I enjoy food, particularly all the delicious sugar cookies that I ate over Christmas break.
Felt sad for people who live by dietary restrictions (by choice or because of health) all the time because I really like sugar.
Drank peppermint tea.
Ate a lettuce salad with Olive Garden dressing and a bowl of Italian beef with some mozzarella on top for lunch.
Drank water with Crystal Light flavoring.
Realized that I may need more dietary restrictions by choice on a more permanent basis – trying to decide if it is really worth it to be skinny.
Drank English breakfast tea.
Reflected on my need to either lose some weight or buy new jeans.
Drank more water and ate a protein snack bar.
Thought about how now that “mom jeans” are back in style, my muffin top may be more easily disguised. But really, I don’t want to buy new jeans at this weight, so I need to lose the 20 extra pounds that I am carrying before I buy mom jeans to hide the muffin top that will still be an issue after I lose 20 pounds.
Was hungry, but instead drank more peppermint tea.
Considered the fat freezing device that I heard about and wondered if it might help minimize the extra skin/fat that plagues my stomach after 5 pregnancies. I have a large appendectomy scar that creates a unique look to my stomach. No matter how much weight I lose, I can’t get rid of that. Pretty sure only a tummy tuck with fix these issues, and that isn’t happening.
Ate roast beef without the bun while driving the kids between events from 4-8:30 while the smell of curly fries tortured me.
Drank more water.
Ate some salami sandwiched by cheese slices and missed Ritz crackers.
Drank more peppermint tea and tucked myself into bed in the hopes that it would stop me from late night snacking.
With all this reflection and self restraint, coupled with burning 150 calories on the treadmill today, I should be down like 5 pounds already…..